Friday, 14 June 2013
A gentle reminder
Ha! That's a bit how I feel right now. "Turn off the computer -- make art!" A little something I stumbled over on Pinterest one day and which is usually so true. Through, I like to make digital art so it's partially not relevant to me -- and sometimes it's rather "stop re-reading that magazine for the fourteenth time and go create".
And then there's the times when you're on the computer and lack the energy to take care of the stuff you should take care of, like replying to e-mails, and end up doing other things and perhaps even use the "get off the computer and to something useful" exhortation to procrastinate all those online chores.
Then I get off the computer and can't get anything started. Perhaps end up on the bed re-reading something as I've felt I didn't have the money to get something new to read (and can't get to the library, which doesn't have the books I want to read anyway). Which is pretty useless and I keep feeling that's precious time I should make better use of -- reading new books or creating something.
I know I've blogged about that before, how I keep losing that important start button. That I love sketching and planning, love creating and love being in the "embroidery flow". But that I'm rubbish at starting. Especially without deadlines. There are many reasons: feeling stuck in life, lacking the right spark (e.g. goals), frustrations as some ideas doesn't work out once beginning to realise them, getting ideas that require buying supplies I can't afford, wanting to keep certain supplies for "that special project" (not using them as they'll run out) -- and despite not feeling at all creative lately there's still a bit of Buridan's ass issues.
But, hey, I'm not totally useless -- I just made that digital image above. The text isn't brilliant, the way it's added, but I sort of like the rest. And with creating, especially when in a rut or feeling rusty, it's more about producing that about the final product.
It does, by the way, show how I've started to more and more embrace blue -- a colours I've never really liked to work with before. I recently shocked my sis by having bought beads in several blue shades. She didn't expect that! (It's really thanks to my favourite colours purple, green and copper, which all works so well with many blues.)
You know what? I'm getting off the computer now. To go make something? Maybe, maybe not. But doing something else is always a step in the right direction. Moving slowly might seem useless, close to doing nothing, but you will eventually reach your goal. That's a big difference from standing still once you've come far enough to look back!