I wasn't sure if I was going to put a question mark at the end of that headline or not. I probably should, but it feels like a definite end to my photography right now. So what's happened that's made me feel so blue?
Well, first of all I have really mixed feelings at the moment due to the olympic handball. Those who know we, know that I've followed the men's national handball team for ages, since the golden age of Bengan Boys. And just a few moments ago the team made it through to the finals!
I didn't watch the second half in the best of moods, though. What happened during the break was that I took out the camera, thinking I had to get a pic of the new poppies before they wilted and I had the time to do it during the break -- tomorrow could be too late as the bloom was just perfect with the thick bud next to it. I wish I had let it wait until tomorrow or that I hadn't removed the camera strap. I was just taking a step when Snuttis ran in front of my legs. I stumbled and dropped the camera, which bounced three (!) times in the concrete floor. I've dropped the camera before -- thank you, Konica Minolta, for making such a sturdy camera! -- but seeing it bounce like that I knew it was the end of it. And it was.
I think Snuttis is still a bit uneasy around me after I screamed the way I did went the camera fell. It's not her fault, but that moment I was so angry. Not specifically at her, didn't scream at her or scold her, just let out a cry to no one in particular. Angry, upset, sad.
Anyway, I don't have another camera. I've wanted a new one since this one got a nick in the lens (you can see it on some of my photos, a blurred area in the bottom right side), but haven't been able to afford it. My mobile phone is so old that colour screens was the newest feature available when I got it. Long before camera phone, even long before the first low-quality camera phones.
Could probably borrow my sister's camera or mom's for special shoots I need to do, e.g. challenges and contests, but I doubt I'll be able to take as many pics as I do now. Which in turn means less blog posts with (new) photos. And also I'm not used to their cameras. I know my Konica Minolta Dimage Z3 inside out and it had so many of the features I want in a camera. It's my friend. As it got older my sometimes willful friend, but still a friend I cherised. Now it's dead and gone.
There may be many better cameras, many cheaper cameras with similar features (and probably more pixels). And anyway, they stopped making the Z3 ages ago -- in fact, Konica Minolta doesn't even do digital cameras at all anymore. But right now I just want my Z3 back... I'm already missing it and I've been without it less than two hours when writing this...